The more parenting books I read the more I realize that I am completely caught off guard by what it takes to parent God’s way. When my children were younger and FEWER I really thought that I had parenting down. When other mommies would talk about hitting their knees every night I would just quietly think to myself “Wow, they must have one doozy of a kid”. Oh the time of ignorant bliss…
Now, this may sound like I’m complaining but I named this blog very appropriately because while I’m going to be very real with all that I’m walking through (which will sound a lot like complaining I’m sure)…I’m filled with HOPE. The HOPE of glory…which is Christ in me. God gave me my children and He has equipped me with all I need to accomplish what He desires.
Yet I struggle as Paul did in Romans 7:15:
“For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate.”
The struggle to be the mother I know my children need is real and evident each and every moment of my day. I fight laziness, complacency, busyness and most of all my own ugly selfishness. I love my children and I’d give my life for them…but I don’t! Isn’t that ironic? Just being real here and it hurts! Will I give my life for my children?
Let’s make it simpler…will I give my TIME for my children? Ouch. So, I’m writing this blog because blogging has always been a source of comfort for me. I’m going to be making changes and challenging myself over the next 3 months and I’d love to have a place to share my struggles and my TRIUMPHS! YES! Triumphs! I am HOPE-FULL!
I have HOPE that I will grow. I have HOPE that I will learn and retain. I have HOPE that I will captivate the hearts of my children and train them up so that they may know this HOPE that sustains me.
Things to come (long term goals):
- Being disciplined in time in the Word
- Cutting out electronic entertainment (kids and me)
- Being purposeful with CREATIVE one on one play time
- Reading to my children DAILY
- Having family devotional time
- Start scripture memorization with the fam
- Establish a way to minister as a family